that their hearts may be encouraged, having been knit together in love, and attaining to all the wealth that comes from the full assurance of understanding, resulting in a true knowledge of God’s mystery, that is, Christ Himself, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge. Colossians 2:2-3
Why am I ever surprised at how good God is? Don’t get me wrong, I rather like being surprised in my joy for Him. He is a treasure that will never be fully known or discovered. This in itself is a very good thing because it means He is vast (Psalm 145:3) and beyond me (and I can put my trust in this One who is greater than me.). This also means He is eager for us to know Him, and He reveals Himself constantly (Jeremiah 24:7; 1 Corinthians 2:9-12; Romans 1:20; 2 Timothy 3:16), giving us the opportunity to be stricken with sheer joy and wonder as we enhance our picture of God. He shows us hues of blues and purples contrasted with the brilliant oranges and yellows. May you have moments where you find yourself utterly broken and at a loss as to how to express your love and gratitude for Him because of your realization about some new treasure hidden in Christ. It brings me to tears just thinking about it. I could tarry here forever…
This is exactly where I found myself today. I love it when God brings to memory an area in my life that was so difficult in the past, that I prayed earnestly for, not knowing how it would pan out, and shows me how He brought me through it and into a more beautiful place than I could ever imagine for myself (and what blows my mind even further is the thought that this beautiful place in which I find myself now is nothing compared to what’s to come!). It’s just so hard when you’re in that difficult season to see past the trial and to trust the One who stands with you in it. I’ve been there and no doubt will be there again. I hate those times yet am grateful for them after they pass. I love the closeness I feel to Him in those seasons, even though it is often mingled with frustration and fear and doubt. I am quick to despair that the season will never end, giving up hope that my situation can even be helped. I find myself being a Little Faith One. It’s in those times that He swoops in with the gift of faith, helping me to trust in Him though everything says it doesn’t make sense to believe He will make it right.
But not today.
Let me fill you in on my treasure discovery. I am an introvert who masquerades as an extrovert but is supremely awkward at times because of my shyness (or else I’m self conscious that I’m awkward which makes me even more awkward? It’s a vicious cycle folks.). I have always felt like it was hard for me to make friends because of this. This is one reason why it was so hard for me to leave our home in Oklahoma to follow God in a new journey. You mean I have to make new friends? Start all over again? This fear nearly matches my crippling fear of having to sing in public, I kid you not. So I had to mentally prepare myself for the long haul. I knew that it would take me about 8-10 years to make friends again, and that meant I would just have to be patient. May I first say that my family members are definitely my closest friends and my Oklahoma friends were just a phone call away, so I have never been truly alone. But there’s something about having girlfriends that I can meet with, and their kids can play with my kids. It just brings joy on a whole different level. Fast forward to today. I’m sitting in my living room, surrounded by five amazing women and about 400 kids (okay so I exaggerate, but there were a lot of kids!), and it occurs to me that I have friends. Good friends. And this was His gift to me just because He’s good.
For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly. Psalm 84:11
If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him! Matthew 7:11
Please hear me when I say that it is NOT true that I only find Him good when He gives me things that feel good to my little heart. He could have left me with no friends at all. But He didn’t. I found Him good even in those times when I felt like I’d never make any friends because I knew that He was near to me, well acquainted with my grief and need for friendship. I knew that He could satisfy any needs I had. He just happened to do that with friends this time. He doesn’t withhold good from us, and the “good” can come in many forms.
You wonder what exactly the treasure is that I found? It’s His goodness and His love that pursues me with such determination, making me aware that I am His treasured daughter. I wonder if He does it for His own joy? Does He not find joy in seeing His children relish in His love? Seeing them enjoy Him? How could you not love Him? You see, the treasure isn’t the gifts He gives, although I would argue that these friends are treasures! The treasure is always Him.
What treasures have you found in Christ? Are you even looking? He’s worth the pursuit! I love how Tozer so articulately writes about the depths of God:
To have found Him and still to pursue Him is the soul’s paradox of love. A.W. Tozer.
Watch as He outpursues you while you are in hot pursuit of Him! He just won’t be outdone.